Time doesn’t stop
It just keeps moving on (and on, and on)
So, the last few days have been a bit emotional for me. No specific reason, but I’m really missing my sister at the moment. It’s around this time of year that she would have been madly focused on planning our holiday to the Isle Of Wight. She loved the planning and organising; making sure that everything she needed was in the camper van. I dreaded this time, where I had to run around like a crazy person, packing, unpacking and repacking when all I wanted to do was sit in the garden reading, or writing.
Not that I have all the time in the world to sit and read and write, and all I wish is that I could be running around after her once more. Her health was going downhill quite rapidly by this time last year. I could see it. I don’t know for sure if she could, but we planned and we prepared and the ferry tickets and admittance tickets were bought, and in the second week of September, we were off.
Looking back, I feel so thankful that I got to have that one last holiday with her. We had a great time and I will never forget the smile on her face when we were on the ferry, and when we were at Butterfly World, spotting as many different butterflies as we possibly could.
We often take time with our loved ones for granted and I guess what I’m trying to say with this blog, is that I would give anything to see that smile again.
So, when the person you love is annoying you and you wish that they’d just shut up, think twice before you tell them so. The truth is that you’ll have plenty of time to do what you want, but you won’t always have your loved one with you. Take that time to tell them you love them, to laugh with them, sit with them and watch the clouds move across the sky, because you never know when your chance will be gone.
I know this might be coming across sort of preachy and I’m sorry, I really don’t mean it to. I’m just saying that if I had that time over again, I would make sure to spend it with her, rather than worrying about the trivial things, because now, I miss her. I miss her with every fiber of my being, and I would give up everything to just see her face one last time.
Li Carter is a writer, artist and crafter. She lives in South Wales, UK, with her family, and five rescue dogs. She’s on Twitter @rbcreativeli , Facebook: Rainbow Butterfly Creative, and Instagram @rainbowbutterflycreative and is the author of My Only True Friend: The Beginning. She is currently working on a new series titled The QuickSilver Chronicles. She is the original Rainbow Butterfly, and wants to fill an ever darkening world with a little bit of beauty and creativity.