When tiredness steals your muse…
I’ve had a very busy few days lately, and I must admit, I’m struggling with tiredness and exhaustion now. I feel so worn out, it’s like my brain is filled with cotton wool and I know that the moment I lay down in bed, I’ll probably not even finish one page of my grotesquely magnified (thank you Nanny who blessed me with extreme short sightedness) kindle book.
As a result of this tiredness, writing has been hard to do. I’ve been going through some things, and the mythical being that is my muse, seems to have abandoned me for pastures less exhausted.
It is hard to write, or create anything, when your eyes want to close all the time and you just want to curl up in a ball and make like sleeping beauty (except with out the beauty).
The thing is, that for me, and I know this sounds dramatic, but writing is everything to me. Creating is everything to me. It is breath. It is life. When I’m not creating, my mind gets full; so full that I feel it might explode any moment. The only way for me to empty it a little, is to create.
Yesterday, I wrote about journalling. My journey with journalling is an ongoing learning curve. I am learning every day, and sometimes, when I can do nothing else, I find refuge within the pages of my journal.
There was a point to this post, somewhere in my sleep deprived brain, but it seems to have gone amiss. So, I’ll leave you with this…
No matter what is going on, a journal will always be there for you. You can tell your journal anything… anything at all, and it won’t judge. It won’t laugh at you, however stupid what you write might be, and it won’t turn its back and abandon you.
The thing is, in truth, a journal is far, far better than a muse. You see, it is just as reliant on you as you are on it, whereas a muse thrives on your reliance on it alone.
So, I guess what I’m trying to say (and please forgive my sleep deprived ramblings here,) is that whatever your day seems like now; whether you’re tired, depressed, happy, sad, jealous, in love, just start writing. You’ll find you actually have more to say than you realise.
Li Carter is a writer, artist and crafter. She lives in South Wales, UK, with her family, and five rescue dogs. She’s on Twitter @rbcreativeli , Facebook: Rainbow Butterfly Creative, and Instagram @rainbowbutterflycreative and is the author of My Only True Friend: The Beginning. She is currently working on a new series titled The QuickSilver Chronicles. She is the original Rainbow Butterfly, and wants to fill an ever darkening world with a little bit of beauty and creativity.