Best Laid Plans

Sometimes go to waste, and sometimes, they just spur you on.

Sometimes, we make plans. Sometimes they’re small ones that it doesn’t matter if they’re broken, but sometimes, they’re big things. Hopes and goals, which are desperately important.

The thing is, we can’t always control what is going to happen when we make plans and then life gets in the way. Life has a funny way of throwing things at you, just when you’ve taken on a big project or goal, and tries to knock you completely off course.

This is what’s happened to me this month. I decided that I was going to write 50000 words during July. I had other plans, too, but life, being the charming, delectable soul that it is, decided to pick this month to throw nine months worth of grief on top of me, and then rip off the training wheels.

So, for the last few weeks, I seem to have been on an emotional rollercoaster; trying to paddle as hard as I can, just to stay afloat, and keep my head above water, when every part of my being is willing me to just give up and slip beneath the sea of tears.

The truth, though (or so I’ve been told), is that this is completely and utterly normal. It sucks! It really sucks! But apparently, it is normal, and I will be okay. It’s just another hurdle in the game of life that I have to jump through.

So, for now, I will keep on, keeping on. I will get up each morning and write and create, and fill my life with positives, in the hopes that they will drown out the noise caused by the pain.

If you’re reading this, and you’re in the middle of your own sea of tears, just try and remember the quote I shared a few days ago. That sea of tears could well be precipitating a truly beautiful rainbow, and you need only push through, (and in the words of Dory, “Keep on swimming!”) to see it.